oh wow!!!! it's been such a long time since i have been on xanga... there's nothing wrong with it. it's just that most times now-a-days i don't have time to log on into anything for a long time and that includes writing thought.... so much but i will not leave this deserted anymore and that doesn't mean i will be writing frequently.....

well not much has happened..... everything is getting more depressing and depressing by the moment and just looking at this life throws my happy mood off and i don't like went that happens. lately i've been hating the life of having friends because i cant live up to the friends expectations; being able to talk about anything with my friends and hanging out with them and i cant do such things especially now because of my parents and my schedule.... i dont like not seeing my friends often and seeing them just in school is not enough...

when i do see my friends in school, i cant talk to them like i used to because there's not much i ccan talk about; due to the fact that i dont get around much to find somethiing interesting and i find it hard to talk about things a like or heard about.... basically i cant start nor complete a conversation... it's miserable and terrible just to think about it.... i wonder if someone out there really understands what i am feeling.... if you do respond to this post... maybe we can find solutions to our conflicts